~Usagi-nee-chan

Here I am. Wednesday night, tomorow we have a day off, and friday it's the last high school day.
I already have my diploma, already gave the hugs to people I loved, as well as the best wishes. I've seen people cry and people smile, I've see people relieved and people in pain.

Still I don't know where I stand.

It isn't clear in my mind that it's one last friday, one last day, one last time. And then it's really over, officially over, and I'll be off the only school I've known since I'm 10! It'll be so weird, because I've known no place else, and all of the sudden I have to say good bye to people, I have to say good bye to the place and I have to say good bye to a part of my life I won't ever get back.
It's over, it's done and there is no turning back. Ever.

I don't know if I'll cry. I don't know if I'll be relieved; after all I've passed ugly moments in there. But there were so many good ones too...
I'm getting confused, too, because I'm leaving my master, my teacher, the one person I admire almost above anything else, the one I look up to as a child to their father. That teacher taught me so much more then what he was ment to, he taugh me to see the world in a different prespective and to think about things I never thought I would! Sometimes even made me change my mind about things I thought I knew and was right about.

It'll be difficult either way, to go to a place I don't know, with people I've never seen and teachers I'm not used to.

Still this has been a year of change. I realised who my true friends were and found passion in theater (and well, found my boyfriend squeeee)... And I really just hope the changes from now on will be as good as the ones before!

Wish me luck!